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I've got a piece of paper; But it's Empty

The diaryTERMINATI0N .

Sunday, January 25, 2009 ( 1/25/2009 10:16:00 PM )

I swear that t0day is my w0rst day ever . Never ever felt s0 "suay" in my life bef0re .
I d0ubt this year g0nna be a better year f0r me either .
Why d0 i say this ? Let me explain . Imgine pe0ple feel happy durnig CNY, but these few days i d0n't feel s0 . Especially t0day . Cause i am j0bless n0w . N0 inc0me = .D.I.E. !
First, i was late f0r w0rk, i feel weird, i did set up the alarm cl0ck but it didn't ring, my Mummie says she tried t0 wake me up but i didn't resp0nse t0 her .
Sec0nd, when i reach my w0rkplace, i spill 0ne 0f my c0lleage's drink . Cause we shar l0cker and she happen t0 leave the drink inside the l0cker but its s0 near the l0cker's d00r s0 it spilled . Damn it, 0f c0urse i have t0 m0p it, and the m0p wasn't that g00d t0 use as well . L0usy . Feel feel sticky and have the smell 0f Mil0 . Then i went t0 T0ast B0x t0 buy f0r my c0lleague, the stuff in T0ast B0x stuff was s0000 sl0w .
Third, i was being terminted, yes, being terminated ! Thanks t0 that bl00dy cust0mer wh0 c0mplain ab0ut me . B*tchesss ! I was w0rking half way, when i saw all the m0rning shift plus the mid shift get t0 g0 f0r break, but they didn't ask me al0ng . I feel weird, i sense s0mething is n0t right fr0m that m0ment s0 i c0ntinue t0 w0rk until my seni0r call me saying that my Assistant Manager needs t0 talk t0 me .

N0 m0re w0rk fr0m n0w 0nwards, y0u're free t0 date 0r ask me 0ut ! L0ls . I feel sad and happy lahz .
But just think that my Management really SUCKS t0 the c0re and are s0000 fake ! Especially my 0perati0n Manager, Mrs M.H and Assistant Manager, Ms Y.H and my Supervis0r, K.0 . They sucks ! They b0th sucks m0re !
Hate them s000 much, they like t0 g0ssip ar0und behind and even inside 0f the pers0n, imagine it . It was s0000 ann0ying and after they tease the pers0n, they even want the pers0n t0 laugh al0ng t00 . Nabeh ! Y0u tease at pe0ple h0w t0 y0u expect pe0ple t0 laugh as well ? Pig brain, use y0ur bl00dy brain lahs b0d0h !
Think i like them ? I hate them fr0m the beginning, since they are fake s0 i fake t0 them back . An eye f0r an eye .
My AM even says i like t0 backstab her behind her, excuse me, please get this clear, wh0 is backstabbing behind wh0se back first ?!
Even quarrel with me and say like i am time b0mb will expl0de anytime, s0 y0u guys are scare 0f me . Fcuking b*tch, even sh0uted at me ! And say wanted t0 call the security ! Y0u better remember ! What g0es ar0und, c0mes ar0und . Always th0ught y0u're pretty . YUCKS !
The m0ment i heard the news, i feel like crying 0ut l0ud and a sh0ulder t0 lent 0n, just feel like telling s0me0ne then decide t0 g0 l00k f0r H0ng Sheng and ask if he is free .
He said he is n0t free, d0esn't have any break, have t0 w0rk till 6 pm . Then i replied never mind and i went 0ff .
But i definitly feel very happy after saying my last piece 0f w0rd t0 her, n0b0dy likes y0u, y0u think every0ne likes y0u ?! And y0u kn0w what ? Fr0m the beginning, i d0n't like y0u and y0u SUCKS ! =)
Finally g0t a chance t0 v0ice 0ut what is always in my mind . N0 matter what i did and said, i am always wr0ng, y0u say i didn't want t0 admit my mistakes but y0u were n0t in my sh0es . I tried t0 c0ntr0l but it is bey0nd my limits t0 c0ntr0l my em0ti0ns s0metimes . Y0u just d0n't understand .
***S0me 0f the things are n0t menti0n here . Shall n0t menti0n .

I remember that was this time, few days back, she is really ridicil0us . I asked my VM wh0m is in charge 0f changing all the mannequin's cl0thes and etc, where is the necklace 0r t0p is being placed at cause cust0mer asking me where is it, i am blur, i tried t0 l00k f0r it but can't seem t0 find it .
Then i went in t0 the 0ffice t0 l00k f0r her, she was sitting inside with my AM . And i asked her, after that my AM talked t0 me asking me why i didn't ask the seni0rs 0r her ab0ut the cl0thes, i was w0ndering s0metimes when i ask y0u guys ab0ut the cl0thes, y0u guys d0n't even kn0w where is it, i might as well find the VM wh0 kn0ws better than us . Isn't it ? Freaking lame then kanna sc0lding fr0m her f0r n0thing, recently she likes t0 sc0ld me a l0t but n0t anym0re . =)
Pe0ple at w0rk can be nice with but seri0usly can't be trusted . Likes t0 backstabbing behind pe0ple's back .
I feel a bit wasted, cause i've already pr0mised my Mummie t0 w0rk till after CNY, and after i get my this m0nth c0nmissi0n and b0nus then i will quit . But i've n0thing t0 give n0w . S0rry, Mummie . I kn0w y0u feel utterly feel disapp0inted ab0ut me . I pr0mise y0u that i will change f0r g00d and get a j0b ASAP .

Y0u guys will never kn0w h0w i feel, ESPECIALLY with this type 0f attitude, i als0 d0n't wish t0 have this type 0f attitude, i d0n't feel happy either .

I've n0thing t0 say ab0ut the j0b and wh0se sh*ts . Wanna get a j0b ASAP and f0rget the unhappiness m0ments .

PEEPS, pls D0N'T ask me what happen !

But anyways, peeps wh0 d0n't like me, i d0n't like y0u either, and y0u sh0uld feel happy cause y0u w0n't be seeing me again .

I g0t a feeling that this year is a bad year f0r me t00 . SIGHS ):
Will have a l0t 0f quarrels and arguements ar0und . I can't seem t0 click well with y0ungsters and pe0ple i d0n't like and strangers .
Just need peace n0w ! I'm free n0w, t0 be myself 0nce again .
But g0ing t0 return the unif0rms and get my pay real s00n . And i maybe farewell t0 my c0lleague wh0 is nice t0 me . =) I will miss y0u guys . =D Thanks ! I enj0yed w0rking with y0u guys !

Sh0uld i take this chance t0 learnt s0me skills 0r g0 back t0 study ?

T0 be happy in heart is t0 be happy in mind .
N0b0dy is there f0r me when i receive this piece 0f bad news .
I want the pieces 0f y0ur heart .
I wish y0u were here with me t0night .
G00dbye, l0ve .

Feel s0 l0st here, was thinking ab0ut a l0t 0f things t0 bl0g here but when i l0g in n0w, i feel s0 empty . L0ls .

N0 new year res0luti0n .
Just want every0ne t0 be healthy and happy .

I want t0 sm0ke again, i can't take it anym0re . Stress . M00DY . EM0 .
RESCUE ME .

I finally realise i was n0t the 0ne f0r y0u and y0u are n0t the 0ne f0r me .*
FAREWELL ; w0rkmates, s0me0ne i like* and unhappiness . CUI*

Anyways, peeps HAPPY 牛 YEAR !

M00, m00, m00 . Niu nian kuai le . ((:

Just finish reuni0n dinner at my grandparents h0use . N0t feeling very happy still thinking ab0ut what happen ealier 0n . Can't help but think as i have been w0rking there f0r like s0 l0ng ?

Back t0 the t0pic .

This year was very different, aiya i f0rget t0 take the picture 0f the buffet, yes we have buffet this year .

D0esn't s0und much 0f a reuni0n dinner f0r me . Cause buffet have t0 eat separtely whereas a "pr0per" reuni0n dinner sh0uld be ate t0gether as a family in a BIG table . That feeling was damn shi0k ! I swear i will miss it !

H0pe next year we will have a better reuni0n dinner . =D

Eh, t0 be h0nest, i d0n't like buffet, their f00d is n0t nice 0nly 50 : 50 and the feeling 0f reuni0n dinner is g0ne .

Feeling very tired these few days, i need a l0ng l0ng rest . N0w i can a l0ng l0ng f0r all i want . =)

Th0ught 0f g0ing 0versea f0r awhile .

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Signing 0ff

huiHUI- BLURs0t0ng .

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