* ;CHARLEEN.L ; Happiness is all I ever wanted . (:

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Tried to write a letter; In ink
I've got a piece of paper; But it's Empty

The diary

Tuesday, January 6, 2009 ( 1/06/2009 09:27:00 PM )

Why can't the w0rld be balance ? Why can't every0ne be sharing the same kind 0f happiness, instead 0f unhappiness here and there ? Then there w0n't be any0ne wh0 is t00 p00r 0r t00 rich .
Happiness is s0 simple, why am i find it s0 hard t0 smile and be happy ? What's wr0ng ?
Unable t0 smile 0r l00k happy at times . Find it hard t0 smile . That makes me super blacklisted and bec0me s0000 anti-s0cial . But i can "CLICK" well with pe0ple i c0mmunicate well .
Why d0es pe0ple always judge a b00k by its c0ver and with0ut l00king at its c0ntent inside ? Get what i am trying t0 say ? Whatever its if y0u still g0ing t0 judge me that way, suits y0ur way . I am n0t g0ing t0 care, because i am always me, y0u are n0t g0ing t0 bring me d0wn .

I've n0t been sm0king f0r nearly 0ne week . G00d news, isn't it ? Y0u will see me gaining weight s00ner 0r later . I am fat en0ugh . And i am UGLY . I hate MYSELF ! Been craving f0r it these few days, help me ~ ! Mummie and my c0lleague was 0verj0yed when they heard the news . But th0ught 0f starting back again, i feel very uneasy .

N0t praying 0f wanting any better this year . Just grant my wish by keeping every0ne in a happy and healthy state ! =)
I'm always al0ne and i have already give up 0n fate . If this is my fate i will just accept it .
I just, just want t0 treat my family nicely and giving them as much as i can give .
T0tally l0st c0nfident in R/S, FRIENDS, trust in pe0ple, m0ney issues . Very sensitive t0 all these issues . D0n't ask why and anything ab0ut the ab0ve menti0n, pls . GIMME peaceeee .
L.0.V.E DADDIE & MUMMIE F0REVER & F0REVER ~ !
My family is the type that d0n't sh0ws c0ncern f0r 0ne an0ther s0 much, we tend t0 keep it inside 0ur heart but deep inside we care ab0ut 0ne an0ther .

Finally, my i t0uch is giving me "s0me" peace . But i have difficluties switching it 0ff . Thanks t0 the press and h0ld the 0ff butt0n . Fcuking tight and small and its inside, the invent0r is s0000 smart huhs ?
Urghhhhh, i miss my Thursday 0ff days . SH*T . They must have taken it away, i hate t0 0ff 0n Tuesday and Wednesday, i am used t0 having 0ff day 0n Thursday, i want t0 pray hard f0r 0ne again .

Been having mixed vegetables rice at Lucky Plaza these days f0r break and i am al0ne . ( Wanna j0in me ?) Damn fcuking cheap, cans ? 2 veggies, and 1 meat is 0nly 2.50$, tell me wherelse can y0u find the cheapest bargain in t0wn area ? N0 ch0ice i have t0 save a l0t starting fr0m this m0nth 0nwards .

0h yeah, i L.0.V.E TQ always ! BIG BIG & DEEP DEEP . =) But ...
F0RGET IT ~

The th0ughts 0f human beings making use 0f 0ne an0ther makes me angry, i hate it when pe0ple are making use 0f me .
A parent's l0ve is str0nger than anything else . Th0ught 0f ink-ing this at my wrist, nice ?

Mummie is bringing me t0 see d0ct0r t0m0rr0w in the m0rning ab0ut my skin .
I been sleeping late, heavy eye circles and eye bags . I hate it lahs . Any cures f0r it ? 0r anything t0 help it lighten ?
Heard 0f SK II miracle water is great, but hear fr0m my c0lleague that 0nce y0u start using, y0u can't st0p if n0t y0u will have side effects 0n y0ur side, was planning t0 get it but sec0nd th0ughts maybe n0t .