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I've got a piece of paper; But it's Empty

The diaryY0u, y0u, y0u .

Thursday, February 19, 2009 ( 2/19/2009 03:11:00 PM )

13 Feb
V day eve few minutes t0 midnight, every0ne is busy sending l0ve message ar0und . I was busy texting a few 0f my friends sending them V day's greeting and its super lag and it t00k a l0ng time t0 be sent 0ut .

14 Feb
Valentine .
S0me pe0ple are s0 ann0ying, kept asking if i am celebrating .
Here i am again n0t celebrating it . (:
Instead i was w0rking .
I swear this is my l0neliness m0ment ever . Never ever felt s0 l0nely in my life bef0re .
Sighs i have been living in this w0rld f0r twenty years yet i have never ever celebrated V day and 0ther special 0ccasi0ns bef0re .
0h what a failure i am . ):
I can sense and smell l0nely t0day . L0ve is n0t in the air . Jeal0usy is in the air . Jeal0usy kills . ):
Th0se three w0rds seems s0 hard f0r me n0w . ** I MISS Y0U, I L0VE Y0U .
W0uld y0u rather ch00se the 0ne y0u l0ve 0r the 0ne wh0 l0ve y0u ?
I think i will never have the taste 0f being in l0ve again .
I d0ubt i will fall in l0ve again .
V day is n0t 0nly f0r c0uples . V day symb0ls l0ve n0t 0nly f0r c0uples . Tell y0ur l0ved 0nes y0u l0ve them .

15 Feb - 18 Feb
I feel i am much m0re happier w0rking in my current j0b c0mpare t0 the previ0us j0b .
N0 m0re unhappiness, n0 m0re cust0mer's c0mplaint . (:
Think my life will be better, just hang 0n there and c0ntr0l my temper .

Life is hard en0ugh, why make y0ur life m0re miserable and w0rst and unhappy . S0 keep smiling even if y0u make a mistake . I can 0nly tell pe0ple h0w t0 d0 it, but i d0n't kn0w h0w t0 d0 it . =)

By the way, my ph0ne have already been s0ld .
But s0meh0w 0r rather, i feel guilty . );
I did s0mething that really makes me guilty the wh0le day .
Kept thinking ab0ut what happen . Was s0 guilty and w0rry .
Sh0uldn't have d0 it .
N0 w0rds can best describle h0w i feel at that m0ment .

19 Feb
S0 l0ng never see y0u 0nline . I really miss y0u .
I have a l0t 0f things t0 tell y0u . I want t0 chat with y0u . Ab0ut y0u, ab0ut y0ur life . Y0ur w0rk . Everything ab0ut y0u . Why view me in friendster with0ut sending a c0mment 0r message ? Y0u have changed s0 much, till i can't rec0gnise y0u are the pers0n i used t0 kn0w . Y0u even changed y0ur c0ntacts . Y0u are scary . Despite all, i still miss y0u ! =) Y0u kuku, but i still l0ve y0u even y0u are a kuku ! I l0ve y0u, kuku ! I l0ve kuku !
I feel l0nely at times, especially times when i missed y0u s0 much ! The days missing y0u is killing me .
I was lucky t0 have y0u in the past but i didn't get t0 treasure y0u 0n time and it is wayyyyyy t0 lateeee . But y0u definite will feel happier with y0ur current life, better 0ff with0ut me . Y0u kn0w any better than me .
0ne mistake and we can't turn back .
I swear i l0ve y0u a l0t and y0u are the 0nly 0ne i l0ve . This is my first and last time i am g0nna be seri0us and f0r s0 h0w l0ng in l0ving s0me0ne, hist0ry will n0t be repeated again .
I really hate y0u f0r pretending t0 l0ve me when i kn0w y0u d0n't at all . But yet, i still l0ve y0u a l0t . Last time i use t0 take y0u f0r granted and n0w y0u d0n't even kn0w h0w t0 treasure me . It really hurts s0 much, n0w i been thru what y0u been thru in the past . And this is retributi0n .
I am c0ming back t0 sh0w y0u i am keeping all the pr0mises i have made .
This pers0n stays in my mem0ry f0r years . This pers0n plays a big part in my life but in the past . I will never f0rget it and y0u . It have always been with me . Thinking ab0ut it day and night . Sec0nds and minutes spend missing the pers0n .
***I think i am insane, i knew we are n0t meant t0 be, yet here i am still thinking ab0ut the past and all the thrash .
G00DBYE .

9 m0re days t0 pay day, can't wait f0r that day t0 c0me .
9 days seems like a m0nth t0 me, s0 sl0w .
Deadly br0ke .
Treat Sister t0 eat LJS just n0w . L0ls .

C0untd0wn t0 90 m0re days .

1o things that i am scare 0f:
1. sleeping al0ne (i am sleeping al0ne everyday) l0ls
2.bl00d (disgusting and scary, cans ?)
3. darkness (i am scare 0f dark since y0ung)
4. al0ne in the t0ilet (especially funny s0unds)
5. insects (eeeyer)
6. gh0st (0h my g0dddddddddd !!!)
7. perverts (fcuk ti k0 peh)
8. m0nsters (d0 they still exists ?!)
9. masks with ugly scary faces (y0u kn0w, ers, th0se with the 0utfit als0)
10. hell (wh0 is n0t scare g0ing t0 hell ?)

Wa, my parents have been marry f0r 23 years . L0ls envi0us lehs !
I d0ubt i can d0 it lehz, face the same pers0n everyday . Hahas .

Dream present . Very dreamy . I swear !
Here it g0es:
Cup cake named cup cake land and fairy cake . With y0ur name/w0rdings and i l0ve y0u 0n it .
If 0nly i kn0w h0w t0 bake 0ne ! Hahaz !

I prefer t0 b0ttle it inside rather than tell ANY0NE . L0VE SUCKS !
有人說世界上最遙遠的距離不是生與死而是我就站在你面前　你卻不知道我愛你 ):

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