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Tried to write a letter; In ink
I've got a piece of paper; But it's Empty

The diaryM00dless ...

Sunday, March 29, 2009 ( 3/29/2009 01:28:00 AM )

I hate CPF lahs, damn fcuking ann0ying, keep sending letters t0 ask y0u t0 fill this and that . Damn tr0ubles0me ! I rather n0t having CPF and m0re cash . Damn CPF . Waste my time . N0rmally i will just ign0re it . (;

Started t0 feel em0 and m00dswings again . Hate everything, myself, this w0rld, pe0ple and whatever .......
Getting s0 b0red and sick 0f everything . I get pissed 0ff easily these days . N0t sure why . PMS visiting ? N0, n0t yetttttt .

W0rking adult life is s0 tiring, t0tally n0 life, w0rk, w0rk, w0rk and m0re w0rk everything with0ut fail . What are human beings living and w0rking f0r ? F0r the sake 0f m0ney t0 live ?

0kays, let me make myself clear, i am N0T a friendly and s0ciable pers0n . Super anti-s0cial, d0n't like mixing ar0und . And i d0n't care, what's use 0f having s0 much friend ? I d0n't need any . My 0nly best friend is bl0gger.com (: . Where i st0re all my happiness and unhappiness here . =D The 0nly difference is that bl0gger.com w0n't betray and make use 0f me unlike real friends . I trust n0b0dy . Pe0ple always think i am the friendly type 0r i l00k very "da0" . That the way i am . Wh0 cares ? I am being me, and i am happy .

T00 busy f0r a date, sh0pping, m0vies, updating bl0g . Cause i am just pure lazy ! =p

I hate picking up calls, text messaging n0w ....
S0 sick 0f everything .

I l0ve alphabet T, just like y0ur name . I l0ve T is because its y0ur name . And i l0ve y0u in my heart always and f0rever, till the very last breath 0f my life . =D N0 swears ! I d0n't intend t0 l0ve y0u f0rever since y0u l0ng f0rg0tten and d0n't l0ve me anym0re . Rand0m here .

A pers0n with0ut dreams is t0tally n0 life . Just like me .
And ...
N0 music, n0 life .
N0 dream, n0 life .
N0 m0ney, n0 life .
N0 h0ney, will die .
L0ls, s0und matching duh ! (; Fun sia .

MaKe s0ME0NE hAPpy iS d0InG A g0Od DeeD . And i think type like this is cute ! (; Big, small cpas t0gether . Matching duh ! (;

Dummy girl was here .
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The diaryWhat the heck ?

Thursday, March 26, 2009 ( 3/26/2009 03:31:00 PM )

I'm b0ring at h0me .............. D0ing n0thing . Ask me 0ut .

Headache .

What the use 0f quit sm0king when y0u n0 l0nger mine ? I br0ke my pr0mise, f0r pr0mising y0u that i will quit .

I started sm0king ... again . (:

Trying t0 numb myself . T0 f0rget y0u .

I st0p thinking ab0ut ... y0u . 0r i didn't ?
I really d0n't kn0w what t0 d0 0r say anym0re .

S0metime thinking t00 much is a g00d way t0 relieve stress .

Have y0u been feeling y0u are stress ab0ut everything when y0u g0t n0thing t0 w0rry 0r think ?

Excessive stress can kills . I h0pe it kills me .

Dummy girl was here .
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The diarySleepy . ZzZzZ .

Wednesday, March 25, 2009 ( 3/25/2009 11:52:00 PM )

Sleepy, sleepy, sleepy .
But i just can't sleep .
I'm thinking ab0ut a l0t 0f things .
It been a l0ng since i upl0ad ph0t0s, as days pass, i feel that i be0cming m0re and m0re lazier t0 d0 (anything) !

Wish i c0uld earn m0re m0ney . (; Buy the things i want .

Dummy girl was here .
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The diaryEM0

Sunday, March 22, 2009 ( 3/22/2009 10:48:00 AM )

Sunday will be a very b0ring day at w0rk .

Very tiring, just an0ther w0rking day . W0nder what t0 d0 and eat later ?
Will have cust0mers ? 0ur prices have been slashs d0wn . Same f0r my bl0gsh0p . (;

Em0 again . Sad lahs . L0ls .

Been having nightmares and have difficulties t0 sleep at night thanks t0 the h0rr0r sh0w i watched !

Shall update again . (When i'm free) =D

Dummy girl was here .
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The diaryStressful life . ):

Thursday, March 19, 2009 ( 3/19/2009 12:49:00 PM )

I'm 0ff and i'm staying at h0me t0day . (;
Its been a l0ng time since i ever hang 0ut with friends and club .
Its been a l0ng, l0ng time since i saw him 0nline in MSN . Perhaps he is 0ut t0 av0id me . Such a c0ward . I hate c0wards !
Even if i am 0n my 0ff day, i am still busy . Feels like time pass very fast .
I need t0 tidy up my cl0thes, upl0ading s0ngs t0 my i p0d, and many many m0re . But i can't seem t0 have the time . Perhaps i spend t00 much time facing my c0mputer, that why .

Spinning headache hurts .

Time really flies, i've been w0rking f0r 0ne m0nth . Stressful life, trying t0 catch up with it .

C0nfused mindset .

D0 any0ne kn0ws where t0 get 0versized tees but is n0t t00 ex ? Thanks, pm me if y0u kn0w . (: L0ve ya peeps !

Dummy girl was here .
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The diaryL0nely life . ):

Monday, March 16, 2009 ( 3/16/2009 01:12:00 AM )

Wh0 shall i l00k up f0r 0r text in the future ?
I need s0me c0l0urs in my life . Shall n0t l00k back anym0re .
Shall n0t think ab0ut the past and y0u . I always th0ught that i can f0rget y0u easily fr0m my brain mem0ry, but isn't an easy task f0r me . Acti0n speaks l0uer than w0rds . Thinking is easy, but d0ing it is hard .
S0metimes i think back . I l0ve y0u as much as i hate y0u . I l0ve y0u as much as i l0ve myself . I l0ve y0u m0re than any0ne . I l0ve y0u as much as the stars ab0ve the sky .
S0metimes i hate y0u as much as i hate myself .
H0w much y0u l0ve y0urself is equal t0 much l0ve yu0 receive fr0m y0ur man .
I miss y0u, th0se happy m0ments and the past ab0ut us .

I might tell y0u that i am used t0 be al0ne and l0nely . But actually that is my biggest fears . Wh0 likes being al0ne and l0nely anyway ?

Instead 0f em0-ing n0wadays what i think 0f p0sting i will first type it 0ut and save it in my ph0ne and i will re-type it 0ut t0 bl0g it 0ut . This way, i w0n't be em0 and f0rget what t0 bl0g again .
But s0metimes i really wish i can cry 0ut l0ud and cry all my heart 0ut . I wish i can cry in a dark c0rner and d0n't care ab0ut the w0rld, anything and everything .

I seri0usly need help in expanding my s0cial netw0rking . I can't seem t0 mix well with pe0ple and i am scare t0 start talking . Afraid 0f saying wr0ng things . And i feel like i can't trust any0ne . Can i ever gain my c0nfident t0 trust any0ne again ? I d0n't seem t0 understand myself . What am i actually d0ing and what am i thinking ab0ut ?

SIGHS ):

Thinking wayyyyyy t00 much . The time n0w is 2.34 AM and i am right here updating my bl0g . And i am w0rking later . I can't sleep anyway . Thinking ab0ut things i sh0uldn't have think .
Well, st0p everything and 0ff t0 bed ! (=
Nights, my dear every0ne . H0pe i will have a peaceful day . Cheers ! =D

Dummy girl was here .
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The diary(: CHEERS

Friday, March 13, 2009 ( 3/13/2009 11:51:00 PM )

A few things i felt weird when i 0pen the st0re this aftern00n .
First thing i reach my w0rk place i sense s0mething is weird . My b0ss lady installed tw0 "cameras" in the st0re . I feel unc0mf0rtable like i am being spy at w0rk . But i g0t n0thing t0 w0rry ab0ut cause i didn't d0 anything bad s0 far, i guess . Hah !
Sec0nd thing is that i realize s0me 0f the cl0thes is missing, i th0ught is missing 0r my b0ss lady s0ld . But is n0ne 0f the ab0ve menti0n, she transfer all the st0cks t0 level 3 .
Third thing is she br0ught s0mething f0r me and that is sweet . I d0n't think its cheap . But i like the sweet a l0t and it is very sweet . I l0ve sweet stuffs ! (=
I have been sleeping really late and n0t en0ugh sleep . Been yawning n0n st0p, i've changed my life style and a few changes in life a l0t .
1. I quit sm0king .
2. I st0pped clubbing .
3. N0 meetups with friends .
4 . D0n't g0 f0r m0vies .
5. Already cut d0wn unnecessary expenses and started saving .
AND ???
Can't remember ... Hahas !

I tried many ways t0 f0rget y0u, but it d0esn't w0rks, but i kn0w in the end i have t0 face up th0se pr0blem i been thru .

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F9UhiQ2V4Xs I like this band named Yuan Wei Jue Xing since years back then and this s0ng a l0t . I even sing it t0 0ne 0f my ex BF in the past and even wr0te the lyrics in the letter f0r him .
I like talented and cute uys like them ! =D B0th are h0t ~ ! L0ls . The sh0rt hair guy is Jay, and the l0ng hair guy is Wesley . (:
Whenever i'm sad 0r feel unhappy i will listen t0 their s0ngs and i will feel happy f0r the wh0le day . It been a l0ng time since i listen t0 their s0ngs .

I need t0 get a life ! I can't carry 0n with my life like this . Seri0usly, i can't .
Vexed lahs . Think ab0ut this and that day and night . Have t0 d0 s0me seri0us planning 0f what i wanna d0 .

I've deleted all my previ0us 0ld, 0ld 0ld friendster acc0unts . S00ner 0r later it will be my 0ld bl0gger acc0unts . And next shall be faceb00k . (: Faceb00k is s0 n0t me . Perhaps i might be deleting my current friendster acc0unt, y0u kn0w as y0u gets 0lder y0u are sick 0f everything CHILDISH . I find friendster a bit childish . Call me n0 life 0r whatever but that me, i've a busy life n0w n0 time f0r MSN, FRIENDSTER and bl0gging . ); Did i menti0n that i still play ne0pets ?! L0ls . I l0ve playing ! (;

Dummy girl was here .
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The diaryY0u are what y0u wear .

Thursday, March 12, 2009 ( 3/12/2009 11:20:00 AM )

Its been a l0ng time since i p0st . Hahas . I super busy . Hardly g0t the time t0 bl0g . First p0st in March .
Very happening recently . Sians . S0me i f0rget and i shall n0t p0st . Lazy t0 think back t00 . Next few week might be m0re free .
What sh0uld i p0st ?
My w0rk ?
W0rk was fine but i have n0t been having my 0ff day f0r 0ne week plus due till my b0ss lady was 0verseas . Tiring, b0ring but it is better than my previ0us w0rk place .
I d0n't mixing with the pe0ple there, s0 many g0ssip m0ngers ar0und . Y0u walk pass their sh0ps, they will talk ab0ut y0u, y0ur dressing . My dressing sense and style is n0t f0r y0u t0 judge, i l0ve what i wear, mind y0u and y0ur m0uth ! Y0u are what y0u wear . 0r y0u pe0ple are just jeal0us cause i'm prettier 0r my fashi0n sense is better than y0u ? Hah !
Theref0re i d0n't talk t0 them, 0nly smile with a few pe0ple there wh0m they smile with me .
I d0n't think i have t0 be friendly t0 them as well . =D I'm n0t a friendly pers0n anyway . Its n0t g00d t0 be friendly .
I need m0re c0urage t0 d0 a l0t 0f things . I need t0 be str0nger as well .

Well, i think i make a mistake in 0ne 0f the previ0us p0st . I have w0rk in my previ0us w0rkplace f0r 1 year 7 m0nths . And i have been single f0r nearly tw0 years . Wa, c00l, first time have been single f0r s0 l0ng . I'M A RETARD !
Skin c0mplexti0n is impr0ving sl0wly, needs t0 drink m0re water, eat m0re fruits and vegtables, sleep early, eat/drink c0llagen and put mask !!! Must c0ntinue and n0t lazy . I believe my skin will be fully impr0ve 0ne day ! (=
I went t0 a beauty centre t0 have my eyebr0w t0 be trimmed but the facial girl asked me t0 d0 facial as well, eh, i am n0t keen in facial, they will p0ke y0ur pimples, it will turn 0ut t0 be m0re ugly than y0u think . And its n0t cheap, n0t 0nly just 0ne sessi0n, y0u have t0 sign up f0r a few sessi0ns bef0re y0u get t0 see the 0utc0mes .
What t0 d0 if g0t dry skin ? My skin is giving me s0 many pr0blems .

T0day is my 0ff day and i am 0ut al0ne . ;) S0 many places i wish t0 g0 . My "wanted" list just gets l0nger and l0nger .

Dummy girl was here .
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