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Tried to write a letter; In ink
I've got a piece of paper; But it's Empty

The diarySuper rand0m p0st .

Monday, April 27, 2009 ( 4/27/2009 12:10:00 AM )

Friendster unglam ph0t0s deleted .
New wishlist in bl0g .

Check list checked !

Feel like t0uching cigarettes again .
Arghhh my mind is empty whenever i l0g in t0 bl0gger . Damn it !
Sh*t i f0rget my passw0rd f0r wireless @ SG h0w am i g0ing t0 use it t0 surf the net at w0rk ? Damn, damn, damn .

I want t0 travel ~ !
I want m0re m0ney ! $$$
I want DKNY and CK bag and watch ! 0h-s0-ex-pen-sive . Ha !
I want Casi0 g0ld watch !
I want dresses !
I want stress-free !
I want happiness !
I want better skin !
I want t0 bec0me m0re ME !
I want MR PERFECT !
0kays, the last 0ne is a lie . A white lie, cause MR PERFECT d0es n0t exists .

0h 0h, m0ther's day is appr0aching and i am n0t sure what t0 get f0r my dearest Mummie . ;)

Wasn't in a very g00d m00d recently, half 0f it is because 0f the sales is n0t d0ing g00d . And i feel stress . The 0ther half is because i suspect i've depressi0n .
Its a bad news !
It been 1o1 days since i heard fr0m him !

Ever w0nder h0w y0ur childh00d was like ? Well, i d0n't really have a g00d childh00d . It n0t that my parents mistreated me, it just that my parents didn't buy me t0ys !
I 0nly can remember bits and pieces 0f it, my grandpa used t0 take us (me, my sister and br0ther) t0 the playgr0und and he w0uld buy us l0llip0p and sweets drinks in secret with0ut letting my Mummie kn0w, cause she d0n't like grandpa keep buying sweet thing f0r us and its addictive . But i missed th0se days s0 much . Unf0fortunately we n0 l0nger a kid and we d0n't stay near grandpa, if n0t can see him everyday . Kinda 0f miss him, afterall he's 0ld . Hard f0r him t0 travel ar0und .
I used t0 hate them (my parents)s0 much in the past f0r being braised t0 my silblings but n0t n0w anym0re, its just misunderstanding between us, i knew they care ab0ut me, and they th0ught that i am the eldest s0 they didn't have t0 sh0wer all the l0ve 0n me, but n0w i grew up, i kn0w cause i kn0w h0w t0 take care 0f myself and be independent 0n my 0wn . =) I n0 l0nger hated them but they're still being braised . But i understand everything, parents have t0 be equal, their l0ve have t0 be shared am0ng the 3 0f us and its n0t easy . Y0u kn0w, as y0u gr0w 0lder y0ur thinking gets mature . I've very str0ng sense 0f jeal0usy .

I remember i used t0 have a childh00d guy friend wh0 stay in the same bl0ck as me which my Mummie t0ld me, i t0ld her i can't remember a thingy . She add 0n: "N0r last time y0u b0th everytime g0 t0 tuti0n and g0 h0me t0gether des l0rs . " I saw him that day with my Mummie and Sister 0n the day which i treat my Mummie t0 eat, he's s0 tanned, he definite is n0t my MR PERFECT alth0ught he is my childh00d friend . Ha ! I can't even remember him ! His name is Zi Liang, i think . L0ls . Lets call him Mr Blackie/The Charc0al Man instead . Hees ! =D

I am unique, i've my 0wn thinking . I am independent . D0n't label with 0ther girls y0u see 0n the streets . I swear i am different . =)

Dummy girl was here .
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