* ;CHARLEEN.L ; Happiness is all I ever wanted . (:

P E A C E

Tried to write a letter; In ink
I've got a piece of paper; But it's Empty

The diary...

Thursday, June 11, 2009 ( 6/11/2009 12:10:00 AM )

It hurts s0 much t0 see h0w much y0u d0n't even care . Y0u're n0t s0rry .
His w0rds breaks my heart s0 muchhhhhhhhh . Everything he said really like a needle pierce thru my heart deep, t00 much w0unds till i can't say much .
I finally see the true side 0f him n0w ! I th0ught i w0n't be sad ever again .
I w0n't even b0ther t0 entertain him anym0re ! I w0n't cry f0r y0u again !
A jerk like him d0n't deserve my l0ve anym0re . Its t00 late t0 ap0l0gize .
I th0ught he is different fr0m 0ther guy, but he's the same ! ): SIGHS s0 disapp0inted .
I th0ught i w0uld be able t0 be a g00d and nice gf, i tried but i kn0w the truth bef0re i can d0 it .
I even planned his birthday celebrati0n, we w0uld have a dinner . My present f0r him will y0u a card i design and draw myself, a cake/c00kies i bake myself and my wh0le heart !
Seri0usly everytime when i see him 0nline, my heart beat very fast but n0w i d0n't wish t0 see him s0 much .
I will n0t cry in fr0nt 0f any0ne, cause i'm hiding it inside . But that is a limit t0 h0w much my heart can take . But i w0n't c0mmit suicide f0r such a m0nster !
Fr0m the day i disc0ver y0u are cheating behind y0ur GF and me, my heart dies 0n y0u . Y0u went MIA, with0ut explaining, meeting me when y0u say want, but y0u never did . What is the use 0f just talking it and n0t d0ing it ? It's useless then . Y0u never text and call me anym0re, and this is y0ur way 0f saying y0u l0ve me ? When y0u l0ve a pers0n, y0u d0n't care ab0ut her ? N0t even a text message f0r y0u . I d0n't exist in y0ur w0rld at all . I didn't flirt at all, i'm n0t s0me0ne wh0 flirts and i'm seri0us in relati0nship, but y0u t00k me and this relati0nship f0r granted . I w0uld take this relati0nship as a less0n learnt ! Y0u t00k things f0r granted, y0ur gf f0r granted t00 ! I always been wanting t0 kn0w this, have y0u ever l0ved me ? Have y0u ever treated me as y0ur GF bef0re ? But n0w i kn0w the answer .
I'll live str0nger than yesterday and pr0ve t0 him that i'll be " happy" .
I d0 care, but n0thing can change the fact ab0ut anything .
If 0nly things went the way i was wishing f0r, it w0uld be different n0w .
But its n0t, after all i am just a third party, a inn0cent thirs party, i say i'm inn0cent is because this guy cheated 0n me !
He d0n't bel0ng t0 me in the beginning, n0w and the future at all .
Fr0m the day we knew each 0ther he already bel0ng t0 s0me0ne's else .
Actually i have a l0t wanna say . But i guess that's n0thing much left f0r me t0 say and kn0w anym0re . I d0n't wish t0 hear fr0m y0u again . I 0nly h0pe that y0u can delete me in MSN cause i d0n't wanna see 0nline anym0re . Pls d0n't appear again . A girl with a br0ken smile .
H0pe they can last l0ng then ! (: I'll be happy f0r the b0th 0f y0u . N0 use hating y0u . But i w0n't f0rgive y0u . I'm n0t that type 0f f0rgive and f0rget pers0n . Y0u will be f0rg0tten ! (:
LAST L0NG L0NG WITH Y0UR GF !
BEST WISHES & ALL THE BEST, MR N ! =)
FAREWELL ; G00DBYE ; F0REVER !
=D Feel s0 happy letting it 0ut .
I guess i must end it with a BIG smile .

Guess what i really catch a c0ld .
SICK n0w . ): FLU . JIALAT .
W0rk's fine, sales have been pretty fine ever since b0ss lady asked me t0 l00k f0r new j0b, as the days is appr0aching, i get tired 0f the j0b, miss the pers0n there m0re badly, hate t0 leave there s0 much, my eye candy is there t00 ! Hmmm, that is n0thing in this w0rld that y0u can't live with0ut with . Even l0ve .
But i met a funny cust0mer, she th0ught the st0re g0t n0 fitting r00m, 0nly see mirr0rs .
Then she t0ld her friend that she is getting the t0p, and i asked her what type 0f payment is she giving, she replied: 'NETS.' Then i swipe her nets, tw0 times declined, then she g0t n0 ch0ice have t0 use her debt card cum nets then here c0mes the funny part, her friend say: 'y0u d0n't tell me y0u f0rget that y0u d0n't kn0w signature already ?' She say n0 lahs, and we all laughed ! Maybe y0u d0n't find it funny, y0u have t0 really be there cause she is s0 funny !

If i'm married with kids in the future, i just want 0ne kid and is en0ugh f0r me, best is b0y, actually b0y 0r girl i still will l0ve and d0te them . Can dress up f0r them !
I'm s0 wanted t0 be called MUMMY ! S0 sweet and cute !
I want t0 plan a daily healthy MENU f0r my kid in the future, if he/she d0n't f0ll0w the menu and eat healthier i will banned them fr0m watching televisi0n, visiting the playgr0und, and eat sweets ! The last 0ne is s0 unhealthy . L0ls . Cause i'm a very unhealthy pers0n, i d0n't excercise and i super l0ve t0 eat junk and fast f00d ! (: I can even eat it everyday with0ut feeling sick ! JUNK F00D is my l0ves ; FAST F00D is my addicit0n ! =)
I'm a natural fan 0f z0diac signs and what they represents c0ncern me . (:
I'm very int0 it . =)

W00h00, J is c0ming back in a week's time ~ !
MISS Y0U BIG BIG !
HUG Y0U BIG BIG !
L0VE Y0U BIG BIG !
L0LS ~ !
Faster c0me back and g0 0ut with me, play with me lehs ! (:
H0pe y0u see this !
And i kn0w y0u miss me !

FACEB00K, faceb00k, FACEb00k, faceB00K, fAcEb00K, FaCeB00k ~ !

C

Labels: ...