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The diaryLOVE PART 2

Tuesday, August 18, 2009 ( 8/18/2009 12:07:00 AM )

I am n0t happy, at all .
Everything back t0 0ne, back t0 n0rmal, I sh0uld be happy 0r sad ?
T0tally l0st, n0 idea at all . 5o % happy ; 5o % sad .
I have t0 st0p being em0 and negative at w0rk and when I'm al0ne .
And st0p thinking ab0ut things that I sh0uldn't think .
When y0u're g0ne, y0u're g0ne .
L0ve, is 0ut 0f the t0pic, I just want t0 c0ncentrate 0n my life, j0b, family and friends . I wanna pamper myself and enj0y life t0 the max ! L0ve myself m0re ! =)

Till t0day I kn0w I am just a shad0w in y0ur heart .

When the day y0u lie t0 me, I have given up .
When the day y0u decided t0 leave, I have given up .
When the day I cry, I have already given up .

When a girl cries, it mean she have really given up .
When a guy cries, it means he is really in l0ve with the girl .

Will y0u be the pers0n wh0 shed a tear f0r me ?

Y0u gave me happiness and h0pe and t00k everything away fr0m me in just a day .
I swear th0se m0ments we spend is the happiest m0ment after s0 l0ng, it been s0 l0ng since I been happy . I really enj0yed th0se times with y0u . The late night m0vie and heart t0 heart talk .

The first place we meet up is Cineleisure Cheers .
The last place we meet up is Cineleisure Cheers .
The first message y0u send me is ________ .
The last message y0u send me is I'm s0rry and etc etc . __________
The first and last place y0u bring me t0 eat is Billy B0mbers .
The first m0vie we catch I can't remember the name 0f it, 0nly can remember is a h0rr0r m0vie .
The last m0vie we catch is G.I.J0E .
The first time we meet is 14 May .
The last time we mee is 8 Aug .
The day we get t0gether is 18 July .
The day we ended is 16 Aug .

All the things we chatted in MSN is still inside my c0m . Th0se sad, happy and funny c0nversati0n .
Especially in the beginning when we started chatting .
At least f0r 0nce, I was happy and really tried l0ving s0me0ne hard, I've learnt s0 many things in this relati0nship and fr0m y0u . I was really very happy when we are t0gether .
Thanks f0r everything 0nce again .

I kn0w y0u've already deleted me in y0ur faceb00k acc0unt, g0 ahead and d0 the same in MSN t00 .
I decide t0 set y0u free after deep th0ughts . I guess this is the best s0luti0n f0r b0th 0f us . Y0u can get what y0u want, I can find what i always wanted . We are equals n0w . I let g0 is n0t because I d0n't l0ve y0u anym0re, it just that I can't carry 0n l0ving s0me0ne wh0 is n0t true t0 me and himself . I'm really tired 0f the arugements we have 0ver small issue .
I w0n't hate y0u, I find it is useless t0 d0 it and hating s0me0ne is really tired . I d0n't wish t0 be sad anym0re after it ended .
I will sl0wly let g0 and f0rget everything, but that d0esn't mean I've f0rgiven y0u .
Anyway it's meaningless t0 say anything n0w .
I just h0pe y0u can be happy, faithful and true t0 y0urself and y0ur NEXT relati0nship, d0n't take pe0ple f0r granted . That all .
Mummy and Daddy even ask me t0 invite my "bf" h0me, but I t0ld them we have br0ke 0ff . (:

Th0ught 0f having a haircut, treat it as a brand new start f0r my new life . But I can't bear t0 d0 it .
Bl0gger went insane again . Cann0t c0l0ur my f0nts and upl0ad ph0t0s . Damn .

Xoxo .

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