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Thursday, November 12, 2009 ( 11/12/2009 09:37:00 PM )

I reserved this watch, will get it when I get my pay this c0ming 25th . (:

This is n0t bad t00 . But the w0rd U and K cann0t be seen pr0perly .

This is my l0ve ! I br0ught this ~ ! S0 in l0ve with it ! B0yfriend watch is s0 in n0w ~ !

Yell0w 0r red ?

Red 0r yell0w ?

Sh0uld I get the yell0w 0r the red 0ne ?

I l0ve b0th c0l0urs, yell0w is my fav0urite ~ !

Went f0r tw0 interviews t0day but n0 avail .

I received the c0mm0n reply .

We will called y0u if y0u're sh0rtlisted .

But 0ne 0f the interviewer say s0mething that makes me really upset .

The interviwer said: I'm afraid that I might have t0 declined this j0b applicati0n .
I feel s0 disapp0inted, and l0st that I break d0wn, really break d0wn, d0n't kn0w wh0 t0 tell . And I cried .

0ften, I always h0pe that there is always s0me0ne t0 share my g00d and bad news .

But in my mind, I c0uldn't think 0f any0ne . Except ____ .

We used t0 share everything t0gether . N0w, I c0uld tell n0b0dy .

Anyway, I'm used t0 it . Used t0 l0nely .

Guess what ?

I have already br0ught my FCUK watch h0me ~ !
S0 damn happy . Ha0 kai xin w0r ! ;D

I will be buying my sec0nd FCUK watch s00n ~ !

M0st pr0bably my next upc0ming pay !

Lately, my spending p0wer is back .

I br0ught tw0 perfumes, FCUK and CK . (:

s0 0bsessed with them and FCUK ~ !

Recently I g0t s0 many things t0 buy . Feel like ch0pping 0ff my hands . L0ls .

But I feel very happy as th0ugh I have everything in this w0rld and feel like I am the w0rld happiest pers0n ever . But th0se feeling is 0nly temp0rary, 0nce the feeling is g0ne, I feel unhappy and regretted f0r the items I br0ught .

M00d f0r party . Any0ne keen ?

Christmas party ?!!!

I th0ught 0f taking up c0urses ab0ut Design 0r Fashi0n 0r Make-up .

But have t0 make up seri0us c0nsiderati0n bef0re d0ing it .

These three are my 0nly interest . (:

Will y0u make it a wish c0me true f0r me ?

F0rget the past, let g0 0f unhappiness .

Why d0 I feel s0 uneasy ?

Th0ugh we b0th have m0ved 0n, but Ican't wait t0 think ab0ut him, like take t0day f0r eg, cause I been t0 the places that he w0rk and the places we went t0gether . Th0se mem0ries c0me back .

N0w I have t0 search f0r my happiness and smile back . I am glad that I have get 0ver . Start everything afresh .

Hence, we start 0ur life afresh, d0n't turn 0r l00k back .

I w0uld ch00se l0neliness rather than sadness .

I may l00k like having everything, but I have n0thing .

Appreciate all the little things I have . In life . Alth0ught its n0t a l0t .

Everyday 6 h0urs 0f sleep is killing me !

Restless everyday .

TV drama and newspaper everyday is a MUST ~ !

0bsessed with H0t Sh0t @ Channel U at 11.3o pm but 0nly half an h0ur .

And, and, and, The Unbeatables III !!! =D

I l0ve Li Nan Xing . (: Best Act0r Ever .

And s0me 0ther act0r and act0ress, can't remember what is their name .

I gave up my seat again . =) Feel extremely happy as th0ugh I have d0ne a g00d deed . (:

Human beings are selfish . Just think ab0ut themselves .

Instead 0f giving up their seats t0 pe0ple wh0 needs it m0re, they pretend t0 sleep 0r read .

But I d0n't need unwanted attenti0n after giving up the seat, pe0ple keep staring at me .

When I've d0ne s0mething, 0r s0mething g00d, I d0n't expect pe0ple t0 kn0w .

X0x0

L0ve me, Charleen . (:

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