* ;CHARLEEN.L ; Happiness is all I ever wanted . (:

P E A C E

Tried to write a letter; In ink
I've got a piece of paper; But it's Empty

The diaryC0mplicated .

Friday, June 12, 2009 ( 6/12/2009 02:15:00 PM )

I want t0 watch the stars in the skies, will y0u be there ?
Interview later, wish me luck, 0kays ?
Visit the d0ct0r just n0w, feeling sick, still . Mummie bring me, c0st a BIG 47 bucks, eh . Is daddie's m0ney . Given MC f0r t0m0rr0w, but i still will g0 t0 w0rk .
But i am meeting my friends at nights, still ! I miss them s0 much !
T00 bad, Hui Zhen is unable t0 make it last minute, Shar0 have t0 g0 KL, and Henry g0t guard duty . SIGHS ):
0nly meeting Zhen Ling with her bf .
S0me things 0nce l0st, y0u will never get t0 find it back again .
Maybe i sh0uld cut my hair really sh0rt and be a butch 0r lesbian .
If time can reverse back, i'll still kn0w y0u, but as a friend, at least we will still be able t0 talk n0w .
As l0ng as y0u think y0u're happy d0ing what y0u d0 and y0u think y0u're feeling happy ab0ut it, just g0 ahead, well, i 0nly can say till n0w i'm happy with my decisi0n and i w0n't have any regrets in life .
We 0nly live 0nce . And never, ever take things f0r granted, things will be different if y0u d0n't cherish it fr0m the start .
I think i am like a glass, alth0ught i've cracks all 0ver me, i'm being br0ke a l0t 0f times, but i kn0w there are always pe0ple trying t0 fix me up by matching all the pieces t0gether t0 glue it back, but n0 matter h0w glue, i'll always have cracks, s0 its better n0t t0 fix me anym0re .
H0pe y0u all understand what i am trying say here . (:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mv-Ekm1y2hQ
This is really sad k0rea s0ng, alth0ught i d0n't kn0w k0rean, but i can tell its a really sad l0ve s0ng, the MV is sad t00 .
Alth0ught they l0ve each 0ther but they are n0t t0gether and i think the guy is very n0ble, he d0nated his eyes t0 the girl wh0 d0ne blind .
L0ve, d0es n0t mean y0u have t0 be with that pers0n, as l0ng as y0u kn0w that the pers0n is happy, y0u'll be happy t00 . Y0u're willing t0 d0 everything f0r him/her . And that true l0ve . (:

I w0n't be 0nline at this m0ment .
Maybe i am trying t0 run away fr0m the fact, maybe i am n0t, i'm just sick and tired 0f all this .

C

Labels: C0mplicated .

The diaryC0mplicated .

Friday, April 17, 2009 ( 4/17/2009 05:40:00 PM )

T0day is friday, and i am 0ff t0day as well as t0m0rr0w, yes, a saturday . (;

I t00k 0ut all my ear studs 0ut when i was w0rking yesterday, 0nly t0 find 0ut that my ear's flesh is bleeding, its disgusting, and it stinks 0kays . All 15 studs t0 all0w my ear have a rest . Perhaps t0m0rr0w i will put everything back, hahas . Mummie is sc0lding me f0r this . She all0wed t0 0nly wear 0ne pair, but i've m0re than 0ne pair and they have been with me f0r years h0w c0lud i bear t0 cl0se them ? They're my l0ve .
Living in my 0wn w0rld ; The way i live my life .

Its Shar0 Jie Jie's 2oth birthday t0day ! (;

HAPPY BIRTHDAY !

May all y0ur wishes c0me true ! =D

As pr0mised, i treat my Mummie t0 eat Cafe Cartel . Well, its quite reas0nable, the f00d is quite nice . (; L0ve it, will g0 there again . I treat Sister t00 . (; Urghhhhh, that m0nster . My neighb0ur is a real BIG m0nster, i hate their M0NSTER family ! =F*

Mummie br0ught me a new specs, need t0 wear it t0 w0rk, and likely lesser make-up, i 0nly get t0 wear my c0ntacts 0n alternate days . I can't wear them everyday as i have virus inside my eyes . 0uch ! N0 w0nder i feel my eyes very dry and red, and gets tired easily when i am n0t tired at all .

S0me0ne wh0 is successful must have s0me0ne behind t0 give the pers0n supp0rt he wanted . Even if he g0t everything, with0ut the supp0rt he needed, he is n0thing in 0ther pe0ple's eyes .

-R0se are girls sweetest drug .

-L0ve is n0t a playing game .

-Never blame y0urself, but the blame 0n s0me0ne else .

-S0me things are better left unsaid and unkn0wn .

0ne thing is true, that f0r sure . Fate is being decided by g0d, y0u can't escape fate . I believe in fate . Miracles d0es n0t exist . Miracles 0nly exist f0r th0se wh0 believe .

All these years the 0nly pers0n wh0m i l0ve is y0u . I STILL can't get 0ver y0u . Y0u're my l0ve . Y0u're the 0nly pers0n wh0 i think ab0ut the future . That is s0 much that i wanna tell y0u, but y0u're g0ne, n0 l0nger mine, y0u left me . F0r g00d ... T, i miss y0u, but y0u've change s0 much, n0 l0nger the g00d b0y i 0nce kn0wn . I hardly rec0gnise y0u n0w . Y0u are freaking scary . I miss the 0ld y0u, the 0ld us, 0ur R/S . Sighs, its been s0 l0ng, my friend t0ld me t0 f0rget him, i agree . But wh0 ask me t0 l0ve him . A jerk like him d0esn't my l0ve anym0re . My friend als0 t0ld me that i deserve a better b0y . Well, i d0n't intend t0 like any0ne anym0re . But just him ... I think i'm still waiting f0r him, maybe 0ne day he might his mind ? S0unds s0 silly, i kn0w . But we b0th kn0w, its 0ver . I am still dwelling 0n it . N0t willing t0 f0rget and give up .

I 0nly g0t 0ne eye candy . (; He's cute ! That n0t like 0r l0ve, kind 0f like puppy l0ve, crush 0r (whatever-y0u-call-it.)

What the use 0f having s0 many friends when they 0nly l00k f0r y0u when they need t0 ask y0u t0 d0 s0mething ? I hate that type 0f pe0ple .

Dummy girl was here .

END .

Labels: C0mplicated .