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Saturday, October 3, 2009 ( 10/03/2009 01:04:00 AM )

J0b hunting, sh0uld I ?
F0r the rest 0f the m0nth, I might n0t be bl0gging that 0ften .
Till t0 my very busy schedule .
I have 20 full shifts, 0ne m0rning shift and six aftern00n shifts in t0tal f0r this m0nth, I bet y0u can't imgine h0w busy and tired I am . T0tally shag and chui . S0 chuiiiiiii, cans ?
Anyway its g00d t0 be single 0nce again, I can enj0y d0ing a l0t 0f things . Like w0rk m0re . Earn m0re m0ney . (A g00d way t0 get rid unhappiness 0n my mind . ) Care f0r the pe0ple ar0und me eg family and friends and kn0w wh0 really c0ncern ab0ut me .
Even if I'm still attached, I d0ubt I have time f0r the pers0n, its n0t fair . And I can't be a g00d gf . Might as well n0t be in a relati0nship . Used t0 being al0ne .
S0me0ne is leaving at my w0rk place, kinda sad . N0b0dy can replace th0se happy mem0ries we all 0nce shared . N0b0dy can replace the j0y y0u bring us .

Kinda 0f miss saying, miss y0u deep deep, l0ve y0u big big 0r l0ve y0u deep deep, miss y0u deep deep . =)
MURDER L0VE .
BURY L0VE .
KILL L0VE .
Get away fr0m l0ve .
Run away fr0m l0ve .

See y0u REAL s00n !
0kays its 2.35 am n0w and I g0nna sleep, I need t0 wake up super early . I am dead beatttttttt ~ ! ): Pass me energy .

PS. I saw my admirer at the bank yesterday, he's s0 cute .

X0x0
L0ve me, Charleen . (:

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Saturday, September 12, 2009 ( 9/12/2009 08:51:00 PM )

Let the ph0t0 did the talking, its simple, its f00d and its nice .

As pr0mised, upl0aded ph0t0s at Swensen . (=

Its Saturday today yet I'm alone at home . Just knocked off from work . Freaking tired . My bones is cracking . Aching like heck .

Ate maggie mee with eggs . Yummy ~ ! =) L0ve dinner . Ai xin wan can .

Just g0tten my pay . Average m00d . G0nna save this m0nth . W0rk m0re 0T .

I guess I'm just using w0rk as a excuse t0 numb myself and av0id the pain .

Starting t0 plan f0r my future . I want h0lidays ! I want 0verseas trips and pampered myself with branded g00ds . I'm being influenced by being a label junkie n0w . G0 crazy f0r brands .

Fr0m n0w 0n, every Saturday I'll be free . N0 m0re late night m0vie . N0 m0re meet up with ____ . S0 d0 ask me 0ut ! (:

Cause I'm single and available . But l0ve is n0t in the air . (:

Just wanna play and enj0y life .

Clubbing, partying and wild nights ! =)

This is me, the 0ld me . With0ut thinking that is t0m0rr0w .

Wanna catch The Ugly Truth, like nice lehs . M18 . (:

I can g0, I'm n0t underage girl, 0kays . Any0ne interested ?

Date me, pls, yes, date me, I say .
L0ls, I als0 want t0 g0 see F1 . F1 R0CKS ! :))

Chi0ng my work . 0T, 0T, 0T . M0ney, m0ney, m0ney . =D

Bananas & green apples are my fav0urites ! They've been my dinner buddy recently .

Skipped dinner too much . N0 appetite at all . Alth0ugh I eat very little n0wadays I feel very bl0ated, my st0mach l00ks very fat .

Gastric acting up again . Better 0ff kill me, then I can g0 heaven 0r hell ? L0ls .

Make me laugh again .

I want find my laughter back .

I miss the 0ld me wh0 always laugh 0ut l0ud and d0n't care h0w pe0ple say and l00k at me .

Smoking last cigarette . I will n0t give up this time . I will n0t quit this time .

0ther than being em0 and upset, I'm still upset and em0 . Y0u and me kn0w the answer why .

Bl0gging and bl0g h0pping . (:

I'm really tired . I d0n't want t0 l0ve anym0re .

L0ve hurts . It hurts deeply thru my heart . Just like a knife stabbing thru my heart repeatedly, and it is bleeding pr0fusely .

My heart g0t en0ugh w0und . My heart needs s0me healing .

M0ney can't buy l0ve, happiness and hugs .

If I g0nna l0ve again, that pers0n must g0ne been thru ups and d0wns, j0y and s0rr0ws with me .

N0t g0nna l0ve again .

Heart is breaking int0 pieces .

After s0 many days, I'm still _____ .

L0ve, sex, magic .

X0x0 .

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